Palmer Bradley Buttars

December 20, 2010
11:27 pm
8 pounds and 12 ounces
22 inches long
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For journaling sake I have typed up the whole birthing adventure in my baby journal so in here I will touch on the highlights of the birth and life so far!

1) Just a few hours after typing my last blog entry my water broke in the Walmart Parking lot- yikes! What a hard decision to know whether to run into the bathroom in Walmart of risk driving home. I'm so glad I drove home. I would have hated being stuck in that bathroom. I had no idea how much water came out!

2) I held out and went for 6 hours without an epidural. Brad was a HUGE help to me during this time. He was by my side the entire time- helped me breathe through the contractions and maintain eye contact with him. I could have never gone through this experience without him by my side. He was incredible. BUT- I realized that it was only going to get worse and was so not worth it so I broke down and got the shot. Oh blessed relief! Luckily I had been in enough pain to not even notice them giving it to me. After it set in I took a nap!

3) My body was progressing pretty quickly and then it just STOPPED! I stayed at a 6 1/2 for 4 hours- blast it! The doctor didn't want to give me Pitocin due to the fact that my contractions were plenty strong (2 minutes long and 1 minute apart) and his heart rate was slightly dropping with the contractions. Also our baby was staying at a -1 station and not dropping anymore. Oh and he decided at the last minute to flip around so that his head was facing up which requires more room to fit out (which the doctor had previously been shocked as to how NARROW my bone structure in that region is).

4) So after about 8 hours of laboring and all of the above issues we decided to go with a c-section. We knew beforehand that this was a huge possibility but it was still hard to make the final decision. After that decision was made things just went very fast!

5) An operating room is everything you have ever imagined- large, bright, sterile, etc. They numbed me up even more (weirdest feeling in the world), put a sheet up to cover my lower region, put an oxygen mask on my face, and secured my arms down. They said that I might feel some tugging and pulling but luckily I don't think I felt a thing! Brad got to peak over the curtain as much as he wanted to view the surgery. He watched some of it but stayed with me to keep my attention away from what was happening.

6) After only about 8 minutes of beginning the surgery I heard the best sound in the entire world- my baby's first cry. Brad and I both immediately started crying. What an amazing and incredible experience. We had waited and hoped for 9 months to hear that first sound and know that he was healthy!

7) The nurses had told me that they would hold him up for me to see- they didn't. Brad said that he was purple and they had to suction fluid out of his mouth so that may have been why. The nurses invited Brad over to help clean him up. I guess Palmer hosed the area down immediately when they set him down. Brad then came over to me and I in tears told him that I wanted to see our baby. He offered to show me a picture of him from our camera. So the first image I got of our son was from our digital camera. Pretty sad but better than nothing! He then brought him over to me. It was so hard for me to not be able to hold and cuddle him because he was BEAUTIFUL. Tons of dark hair, calm as can be, and a miracle.

8) The adrenaline from the days events got to me and I was SHAKING all over the place. It was so hard because when I finally did want to hold him I didn't dare because my arms were shaking so bad. Luckily that finally died down and I was able to hold my son. I still couldn't believe that he was really here.

9) The hospital stay was great. The nurses were so helpful and I'm so glad that with the c-section I got to stay there longer. I definitely needed their help with my recovery and most of all the whole nursing thing (whoever says that nursing is natural for you and the baby is not telling the truth!) It was fun to have people come and visit but I especially cherish those times that it was just our little family at the hospital enjoying our time together. Because it was the week of Christmas Brad didn't have to go to work for most of the week so he was there for a majority of the time. I loved it.

10) We came home on Christmas Eve- what a neat next few days! I had always imagined how much I would love being able to sit in our living room with only the Christmas tree lights on as a family and we were able to do it. This was an incredible time of year to have a newborn.

11) Palmer has been a fantastic sleeper from the beginning. He usually gets in at least 5-7 hours of straight sleep before waking up to be fed. This definitely makes the transition into parenthood a whole lot easier. We just hope it sticks!

12) Palmer takes after his father. He has a bottomless stomach that can't seem to get enough food. I have had to supplement him because my body can't produce what he needs (thanks Mom for those genes). If he doesn't nurse from me he drinks about 6 ounces from a bottle. This is as much as an average 4 month baby eats! His cheeks are starting to gain some weight on him from all this eating! Funny thing is that for awhile we were worried because he was losing weight. Now we definitely don't have that problem!

13) I had no idea how time consuming it is to take care of a newborn! I feel like I just get through a feeding (although it takes twice as long when I am nursing and then giving him a bottle) when it's almost time for him to be hungry again. I now understand why they say that a mom is lucky to get dressed by 3:00 in the afternoon. I feel like I live in my pajamas.

14) He is so strong! From the beginning his neck has been so strong and he can push away from you so easily. He will be supporting his head in no time!

15) He LOVES getting his diaper changed. He will calm right down when we set him on the changing table and sometimes I just want to leave him on there afterwards because he is so content.

16) He is officially smiling. They say that at this time they are gas smiles but no no- I can tell when it is a gas smile versus a real smile. We'll be playing with him and kissing his face and his whole face will light up. It makes my heart melt.

17) Brad has amazed me with how naturally he has slipped into the whole parenthood thing. That is definitely a bonus to marry someone that was the oldest of 6 children. He can sometimes calm Palmer down in ways that no one else can.

18) It is just so much fun to see him change and grow every day. In some ways it makes me sad that he is growing up so fast but it is exciting to see what new things he will learn.

We are learning along the way but LOVING being parents to such a wonderful little boy. The three of us couldn't be happier!

Still Waiting....

Well if you were to look at my blog today you would see that it says that I have only 3 days to go... I hope that it's only 3 days (or less)! This anticipation is very nerve-wracking! I'm not sure how much more of it I can handle! I've been trying to be pretty active the past while to help these contractions come more often (I've been having contractions off and on for the past week but nothing super consistent) but it doesn't seem to be helping. The question is...if he doesn't come by the 23rd do I continue to try to be active to get into labor or do I lay low for a few days so I can get Christmas out of the way?

Am I done with work yet? Who knows. I took a personal day today and my principal just approved one for tomorrow as well. I can do a half day on Wednesday right? The main reason why I don't want to go in this week is that the longer it takes to start my maternity leave the more things that I think I need to do to prepare for my long-term substitute or other things come up that require more time than what I want right now! On Friday I was at the school until 6:00 trying to finish up all sorts of things. I wish that my school had gotten out on Friday for the break like other schools in the area!

Luckily things have looked like they are progressing as far as my body goes. As of last Tuesday I was dilated to almost 2 1/2 cm and 70% effaced. I go in today and I hope that I have progressed even more. We got to have an ultrasound and see our lil' baby last week! It was fun to be able to see him one more time before we REALLY see him. We did learn a couple things though...he's not so lil' after all (he measured at being around 9 lbs. and 1 oz. - those ultrasounds can be off but we're pretty sure that he won't be a 6 pounder), he took after both of his parents and has a very large head (they measured his head circumference as being in the 96th percentile...ouch), but everything else looks very healthy (we were able to see the 4 chambers of his heart and other organs working just perfectly). Unfortunately the doctor has been very shocked about how narrow my pelvic bones are and with the size of this kid we have had some good chats about this delivery. He has just warned me that a c-section is a very large possibility. I still want to try to have him normally but it's good to know ahead of time that it might come to a c-section so I won't be upset. The thing we care about the most though is that he comes out safely and that my body does okay during the whole process as well. We just need to get him out before he continues to get bigger!

No, we don't have a name yet. We still roll a few around our head but haven't made a decision about it yet. Brad likes to call us "name snobs". No, I'm not worried about other people "stealing" it before he comes. We just don't want people's opinions, we want to wait and see him, and it gives somewhat more of a surprise to people when we have him. Hopefully we can decide on one before we leave the hospital!

I do have to say that this whole business of being ready for him to come any day has been pretty neat around the Christmas season. Let's just say that I had to hold back a lot of tears at church on Sunday when two of the speakers not only talked about the miraculous birth of the savior but their own experiences with the miracle of birth. I think it will be so neat to have him in the hospital and our home this season. I can't wait!

Second Trimester

Well I have successfully made it through 2nd Trimester and these are my thoughts so far:

1) 2nd Trimester is a heck of a lot more enjoyable than the 1st Trimester! Besides having to eat a little more often, a growing belly, and some more sleep required it's been fun!

2) I LOVE watching the lil' guy move around in my belly. Brad laughs at me because he'll walk into the room where I'm resting and I have my shirt pulled up so I can watch my stomach. It's so crazy! (In fact I'm trying to watch him move and type at the same time...it's a slow typing process :) ). His favorite time to move around is around 8-10 at night. I've discovered that if I try to be motivated and go to sleep early I lay in bed without sleeping because he's moving too much.

3) Belly Bands are a lifesaver. I wore maternity pants for the first time this week...I've been able to hold out this long. It was a well spent $16.00!

4) Heartburn has been a constant companion for the last 5 weeks. Tums are a lifesaver...I wouldn't survive without them. They say that the more heartburn you have the more hair the baby has...this is going to be one hairy kid!

5) I was somewhat dismayed to realize that what I thought were "loose" and comfortable pajama shirts are now too small. I wear Brad's t-shirts now...

6) It's taken me awhile to figure out the most comfortable sleep position that will help keep me on my side and keep the heartburn to a minimum. I think that I have finally figured it out and it requires 5 pillows to make it happen. Brad has had to give up all ideas of sleeping anywhere close to me.

7) I think that God made us have to go to the bathroom a lot during the night to help us get used to what's to come. I think that I'll be pretty well prepared.

8) Some pregnancy symptoms that I haven't experienced any more than my pre-pregnancy days (but I'm sure some will come): intense cravings for a certain food, forgetfulness, clumsiness, and being overly emotional.

9) Leg cramps in the middle of the night are terrible.

10) The confusion of the whole months/weeks thing with pregnancy. If they are going to say that a pregnancy is 40 weeks why the heck do we say it is only 9 months? I am currently 29 weeks which if I do my math correctly that would mean that I am 7 months along but if I tell that to people then they will think that I only have 2 months left when I really have 3. But I feel like if I only say that I am 6 months along (and that won't be 7 weeks for 3 more weeks) that I am cheating myself of some time. How did they decide to go with such a screwed up system?

11) I thought that I would hate people touching my belly. It doesn't bother me so much.

12) I am NOT a needle person but I have to say that I have done very well with all the blood tests and shots that I've had to get. (I have the rH factor and have had to get a couple of shots periodically for that). I haven't passed out once!

13) We keep getting asked the question if we have a name picked out. Nope! Pretty sure we'll be one of those couples that are deciding one quickly as we're leaving the hospital so it will have a name on his birth certificate other than "Baby Boy". I can't even make up my mind on where to go out to eat...how am I supposed to decide on a name?

13) This whole constant worried thing that I experience for my baby's well-being...is this what mothers experience for the rest of their lives? I think I'll die of stress! I keep on thinking the worry will go away once he is in my arms but I have a feeling that it will only be increased.

Well I feel good so far...we'll see how 3rd trimester treats me! We're sure excited for him to come. I haven't yet thought too much about the delivery thing. I'm sure I'll get more worried about that when the time gets closer :).

I Finally Surrendered

Okay...so many of you know that I've been stubborn. I've been holding out and not interested. I've considered surrendering before but realized that I didn't want to do what was "popular" but most of all... the subject just did not interest me. Well I surrendered (somewhat on a fluke...I'll explain later) and I think with somewhat of an open mind. Now that I've finished with the first one I can only left to wonder, "What the heck is all this hype about?!?" I was not all that impressed and not too sure if I'll continue on with the next however many there are.

So if you haven't yet figured out what the heck is I'm talking about...it's the book Twilight.



So to begin, I love reading and I'll admit that I like a book with a little bit of romance. When I heard about Twilight years ago (while I was student teaching in the winter of 2007- pretty sure the book was very new at that point and not many people knew about it) I thought it sounded like the most unappealing book in the world. The teacher who was recommending it loved a book about vampires? Honestly? Not my type of book. As it became more and more popular I still kept on thinking that I was just not a vampire reading type of girl.

Then as women and my students became OBSESSED with it I couldn't help but be even more turned off. There just seems something wrong about married women wearing "Team Edward/Jacob" shirts and swooning over either one of them. Sure, I'll be the first to admit that I think that characters in books or movies are attractive and that I'll watch a certain movie because a certain George Clooney or Jake Gyllenhal (those are just some of the many attractive ones out there) will be in it or I'll listen to Michael Buble and my heart melts a little bit. But honestly...some of these women are way to obsessed and it just rubs me the wrong way.

Well, just earlier this week I just recently discovered that the library has a place where you can temporarily download an audiobook or ebook (just one that you read on the computer). Way cool. I was in hopes that they would have the second Hunger Games book because I had just finished the first and was dying to read the next (but didn't want to be #537 on the waiting list at the library). Sadly they only had the audiobook and I only listened to about a half a page and couldn't stand it any longer. The reader was terrible! So I kept on playing on the website and just wanted to see if Brad's old laptop would download an ebook. Well I went to the "Most Popular" page and of course Twilight was near the top of the list. I didn't know what the others were and so without much thought I downloaded it. After it was downloaded I decided I would read one chapter to see what I thought. I read one chapter and decided to continue.

Well I finished it just barely and I can't tell you how many times I rolled my eyes or thought that the storyline/dialogue was somewhat ridiculous. I really did try to have an open mind. Like I said before...I like my romance but this was so sappy I couldn't handle it. I was also largely disturbed by the talk of "her scent" and him sneaking in to watch her sleep at night. Last time I checked that would come up under the definition of stalking. Not romantic at all. I also kept on trying to figure out why the heck this "perfect Edward" was so in love with "boring Bella". She has to be one of the most boring main characters ever! From what I could figure out it sounded as if it as only because of her scent and he couldn't read her mind...yeah that's great but I don't think I would find that extremely flattering. More depth please.

We'll see if I read the next book. I've heard the story line gets more and more outrageous so I don't know if I can handle it. I may read it if I want to read something and I don't have another option but I'm not jumping on to the library website and putting the next one on hold at this moment. I guess now I can say I have given it a try.

Now let's talk about The Hunger Games series...that's some good reading!

***Sorry to all the Twilight fans out there who may read this and have their fists clenched the entire time with anger--- you're fine to love it all you want. It just wasn't for me I guess. ***

Home Projects

So working on a house takes a lot of time---and that presents a slight problem when you seem to have a lack of extra time to put towards the house. Brad and I are sure hoping that when summer ends the craziness will die out as well and we can put some more focus on the house. We are currently sleeping in the basement because our bedroom is all torn up. We are doing some closet work which means that all of our clothes are also in the basement lying across all the pieces of furniture we have down there. I've been working on tearing off the dang wallpaper for weeks now....our next house will NOT have wallpaper :)! It'll be great to have a finished product and it shouldn't take too long...if we only had more time :).

So this is a picture of our bathroom that we finished awhile ago. Brad did such an amazing job with all of the molding work around the beadboard, the tile, and everything else. It's so fun to have a room that we have changed to our feel like it is truly our own.

So here is a before picture and them some after pics.

It's A Boy!

We are going to be welcoming a baby boy into our family! We had the ultrasound last week and it was a wonderful experience. We got to see some amazing views of our little baby moving around like bringing his foot up to his mouth, moving arms behind head, etc. The thing that was amazing was that with all the movement that he was doing in there I couldn’t feel it at all. It makes me realize how much he moves when I can feel it!

We were able to get a good look at his heart, spine, blood flow, kidneys, a hand with 4 fingers and a thumb, and even his lips! I sure love living in a time where we have technology to do this. It was so comforting to see that everything is developing as it should and he looks like a healthy boy so far. He was being very stubborn at first and we thought we were going to have to leave without knowing what we were having. He was sitting straight down (basically right on my bladder- I could feel that one ☺) with his legs crossed in front of him. With some poking and prodding we finally got him to adjust a little bit and move around to see that he was a boy. We're excited!

Now I just need to come up with some name ideas....


Here's a picture of the lil' guy. I love this one because you can see his foot and his face. Cute little thing!

Christmas Delivery!

I'm so excited to finally announce that Brad and I are expecting a baby on December 23rd! We are definitely hoping that either the baby comes about a week early or a week late (not just a couple days late :) ). We are so excited and definitely a little nervous for this new stage in our lives.

I'm now 14 weeks along and life is getting so much better. My 1st trimester was pretty rough- I was throwing up about once or twice a day, my appetite was pretty much gone, and I had absolutely no energy or motivation. But things are definitely starting to improve- I only threw up three times this week and I feel much more myself.

We've all ready been able to see 3 ultrasounds of the lil' tot because I was threatening miscarriage at one point, my normal 10 week check-up, and a scare of possible appendicitis at the Emergency Room. As much as I don't like some of those scary things to happen there is nothing cooler than seeing that baby grow every time they do an ultrasound and hearing the heartbeat. What a marvelous experience. Life couldn't be better!